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Tired Head or Beat?

Reflection is a part of teaching. As the new calendar year begins, I find myself rethinking, reworking, and reorganizing for my students. In response to Margaret Regan’s Edutopia posting Six Steps to Master Teaching: Becoming a Reflective Practitioner, I am dedicating the next several blog entries to these six steps.

Step#3 – Pool both Patience and Perseverance

A family friend who is a few years older than I am, graduated high school, then college and started her teaching career. I was so excited for her! She was completing the dream I wanted for myself. I envisioned the way my friend would decorate her classroom, align her desks, design her policies and procedures, and define her classroom rules and expectations.

To my surprise she quit after her first year of teaching. I could not understand how anyone could quit something that was engrained in her as a calling.

We played golf every morning in New Mexico.

The statistics are outstanding! Ten percent of teachers quit after their first year. Many articles have been written on why this might occur – salary, student behavior, work load, etc. When it comes down to keeping our teachers, we must share with them that it is acceptable to take time for themselves. Teachers need to use their weekends to re-energize/revitalize themselves. We cannot let each other get stuck in the ruts of the job.

When my husband and I leave for the day (He teaches at the junior high, and we commute.), one of use asks, “Are you tired head or beat?” which means, “Are you mentally exhausted, or are you physically exhausted?” Usually, on Fridays I am both!

I am and will always be a teacher. It is not my job but my calling in life. Because it is my calling, it is my duty to make sure I am at 100% when I go back on Monday morning. Neither I nor my students can afford to lose any instructional time. It is imperative I find ways to recharge mentally and physically.

This weekend I treated myself to a manicure/pedicure with my mother. That is two hours of serene pampering for me from me!  But there are many other things we can do for ourselves.

Other activities that bring a revitalizing energy to my inner teacher are: playing golf, sparring, boxing, writing, reading, browsing the book store, shopping, watching movies, and/or meeting friends for dinner.

Other ways I recharge mentally: participate in a Professional Learning Network  like #edchat #engchat on Twitter (there are many others!); read inspirational books, blogs, articles; listen to music; take a class (scrapbooking, photography, Zumba, jewelry-making, etc).

For the first 12 years of my teaching career, I taught summer school. The last two years I declined teaching summer school because I now need the summers to find my inner peace and re-energize the teacher in me. Instead of summer school, I have kept my nephew Will and my godson JD. Being able to spend time with them (and at the pool, soaking in vitamin D), has given me a new appreciation for “me time.”

How do you re-energize/revitalize your inner teacher?


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Wrapping my head around my Blog

Clearly, I need more information and education to create the blog of my dreams. I have had a few ideas on how to incorporate all my writings; however, my attempts to link them all together is becoming somewhat of a nightmare to me. I am heavily considering seeking assistance in organizing my blog posts, so I can have them organized and displayed the way I envision it in my mind.

Sometimes I feel as if I am the only person who struggles with technology even though I admire it so! There are so many things I want to do, yet I always find a way to make the new, cool things in my life seem “just a bit too far out of my reach” as if I am too old. For example, I am pretty sure that this blog is user-friendly, but I continue to have trouble using it the way I want to use it. Is it that I am the unfriendly user?

Nevertheless, I must call it quits for the night. It soon will be day, or morning anyway.

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Loving the Library

I have fond memories of watching Reading Rainbow on PBS and taking trips to Sulphur Springs Public Library. My mom would make my brother and I watch Reading Rainbow and make lists of books that we wanted to look for at the library.

I do not remember finding many of the books from the show. But I do remember falling in love with reading, books and the library. The SSPL has since been moved due to building issues, but in a moment I can be taken back to tracing the slick, wooden banister of the colossal staircase that lead up to the second floor. I knew I couldn’t read those books, but I just enjoyed walking down the isles and browsing the large books thinking one day, I would be reading them.
This is my second summer to keep my adopted nephew JD. As a teacher I know that summer time can be a lapse for one’s education, so I try to stress that we read, do math, problem solve, learn about nutrition and explore some in science.
JD and I have made frequent trips to Schimelpfenig Library in Plano. I know I need to focus on increasing the difficulty of his reading comprehension and push his Lexile levels, but I cannot help the passion a child has for reading for pleasure.
While looking for a Magic Tree House chapter book, a library worker asked JD if he was interested in the summer reading program. He agreed and found me to ask if I could help him sign up. I was so excited for him! He chose 10 books as his goal, which I knew was too low, but he had a plan in mind. After we signed him up for the summer reading program, JD pulled me to the side and said, “Aunt Daphne, I still want to check out more than 10 books, okay?”
Of course, we did! He personally checked out all 29 books. Some of them are easy reads, but more than half of them are chapter books. The fact that he is excited about reading tugs on my English heart strings.

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To Speak or Not to Speak — That is the Question

I read an article prompting public school teachers to speak out about public education. As the initial step according to this article, Chris Janotta encourages public school teachers to “wear red for public education” on Tuesdays. My first reaction to this request is, “This is harmless. I can do this.” As I continued to read the article, there were several ideas Janotta raised in “What Teachers Need to Do Next” that stirred the advocate in me. (http://www.sosmtm.com)

Who best to ask about what works in the classroom versus what doesn’t work if not teachers?”

In my classroom I am constantly trying new strategies, implementing new uses of technology, changing the routine, offering a variety of assignments all in the name of student engagement. Gone are the days of public school students sitting in rows, waiting patiently, listening quietly like little sponges . . . at least in my classroom. In fact, the only days my students’ desks are in rows are for standardized testing, and the rows negatively affect me more than the students. I fall back into that old school teacher from my childhood who made us sit in alphabetical order, or worse, in the order of our class rank in that particular class. I become an angry, bitter watchdog looking for cheaters and stealers. I begin hating myself and questioning why I became a teacher. However, standardized testing will never cease, so I tolerate these demons for the testing days and come back to the reality I create for my classroom.

Old school does not work in my classroom, for my students or for me. My students’ desks are arranged into groups of four, making a table for collaboration, discussion, inquiry, peer revision and many other life-like skills that my students will need in our society, our world, when they complete that graduation ceremony. It is very important for students to learn how to work with others, including those people who are different.

There is a time to play and a time to work; however, working does not require silence. My classroom is rarely quiet, and I like it that way. In fact, the only time it is completely silent is during a standardized testing situation, but I digress. I encourage must students to talk, read their writing out loud, ask questions and be vocal. I cannot imagine a classroom that does not foster these skills. One question people ask me when they realize I am serious about allowing (but really encouraging) “the talking” (shutter the thought) is, “How do you get their attention?”

There are two strategies I use regularly to get my students’ attention when I want to address the class. Neither is always effective, so I adapt when necessary. Nevertheless, I either stand at my lectern silently and wait (there is usually one student at each table who sees me, knows what that means and quiets the table) or I raise my hand and walk around the classroom. These strategies are based on classroom NORMS (which is a different topic – not discussed in today’s post).

I require all of my major work to be uploaded to Edmodo http://www.edmodo.com where I can download it and grade it right in Microsoft Word. This is beneficial for both the students and me for several reasons. I know longer have to drag a crate behind me to and from work with all their papers, which means I am working on going green. I can access their work from virtually anywhere I have Internet access and Microsoft Word. The students can set up their Edmodo accounts to be notified and/or alerted when I have graded their work. The grade and feedback is private. There are fewer excuses, and the list of advantages continues.

” . . . problems teachers face on a daily basis such as dealing with a lack of resources or technology, having no control over the curricula they are forced to teach and test on, and having to make accommodations due to overcrowded classes, . . .”

Yesterday I had lunch with a great colleague and friend who does not teach English. After much talk about our personal lives (catching up on what has been going on with each of us since we last saw each other), the topic, as it always does, shifted to school issues. I continue to be shocked at the number of teachers who are required to teach to a specific curriculum because the school district paid for it, especially when the curriculum does not meet the standards for the state requirements.

There are some things the public needs to know and inquire about at their schools. The standards for Texas schools are listed on the Texas Education Agency’s (TEA) website. In fact, each district website usually has a link to TEA. These standards are referred to as TEKS (Texas Essential Knowledge and Skills http://www.tea.state.tx.us/index2.aspx?id=6148), not to be confused with TAKS (Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills http://www.tea.state.tx.us/index3.aspx?id=3839&menu_id=793). The similarity in both of these titles gives the impression that the state test is an assessment of the listed standards, which is true. However, in another article written in response to effective teaching, Bill Dillon reports that Vicki L. Phillips (director of education at the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation) concludes, “Teaching to the test makes your students do worse on the tests . . . It turns out all that ‘drill and kill’ isn’t helpful.” It should be noted that this survey and these results were not in response to Texas schools. Also, Vicki Phillips, Bill Dillon, and Bill and Melinda Gates are not in Texas public classrooms observing this for themselves. However, neither are the TEA employees, nor the administrators in most public school districts. Therefore, I must concur with Janotta in that classroom teachers are the ones who are in the big middle of things in our public schools. That’s not to say that all teachers are good at teaching (which includes more than educating students).

See Bill Dillon’s New York Times article here . . .http://www.nytimes.com/2010/12/11/education/11education.html

” . . . the rotten teachers that are dragging the education system down with their tenure, and their unions, and their implied lack of proper teaching techniques.”

Let me clarify a few things before I step on my soapbox and vent about apathy and incompetence:
  • Not all teachers with tenure are bad. There are some fabulous tenured teachers who are professionals and are still teaching because they are passionate about teaching, whether it be their subject area and/or the students who keep them going.
  • Texas does not have teacher unions, but rather professional organizations. Texas teachers are not allowed to go on strike.
  • As in any profession, college does not always prepare people for every situation in a career. Therefore, there are teachers who are not prepared for what comes with the job.

There are not many things that aggravate me more than incompetence and apathy. With that being said, there are many reasons people become teachers. I knew from a very young age that I wanted to teach. I liked school from kindergarten to graduation of high school and was good at the structure it offered me. I enjoyed reading and writing although neither was easy for me, nor was I excellent in either field. In college I chose English as a major because I enjoyed stories and characters as well as reading and writing. When it came time to chose a minor field, I picked reading for two reasons: because I had to have a minor; because I was not a fast reader like many of my friends and classmates, and I wanted to know why I was not a good reader and how to fix that problem. After I began my internship, which is really overstating “visiting another teacher’s classroom, I realized how much I loved kids and being a part of their learning process. There is something really special about being with a child and/or student when he/she “gets it.” I still get that “warm and fuzzy” feeling inside and the goosebumps that go with it when that “light bulb” comes on. THAT is what keeps me trudging through the public school system! However, with the good comes the bad. Other reasons people become teachers:

  • layoffs
  • desire summers and holidays off (with their children)
  • love of the subject are alone
  • Got any others? __________________________
The PDAS (Professional Development and Appraisal System) is supposed to be a monitoring system for administrators to view, critique and provide feedback on the teach strategies of their teachers. Like any system it can be abused and manipulated to benefit and/or destroy the one being appraised. However, many administrators are just “talking the PDAS talk” by making sure they meet their quota of walk-throughs and and formal evaluations for the calendar period. If the evaluation (formal or informal) is anything but positive, one leaves the door open for discussion, questions, more walk-throughs and re-dos, which in turn creates more work for everyone. Instead of using the system properly to give firm evaluations of teachers and provide feedback with honest comments in areas of concern and/or growth, many administrators have moved into a “get ‘er done attitude when it comes to evaluations. If all the teachers are receiving decent to good evaluations, the teachers are not complaining. If the teachers are not complaining, I have less work. All in all, this would be acceptable if all the teachers were decent to good teachers, but they are not. There are some public school teachers who should not be teaching our students. Whether they are rude, disrespectful, mean and/or down-right demeaning, or they are not teaching the students the content needed; there are teachers on many campuses who should not be there. It is obvious by their attitudes, their work-ethic, their behavior, their comments, and/or their incompetencies. The question remains: why are they teaching? Good question. The PDAS system should be and can be used to remove these teachers from the public schools. All it takes is a willing administrative staff to use it to their advantage.

Not about what we are so upset with, why we feel under attack, or how tired we are of feeling misunderstood, but about who we are, what we do, and how we think public education needs to be reformed.”

Public education needs to be reformed by allowing teachers to create, collaborate and communicate more effectively. I enjoy learning new strategies to use in my classroom and collaborating with colleagues who enjoy learning new strategies as well, whether they are another English teacher or not. In fact I have worked with a math teacher in learning and implementing new technologies in my classroom, allowing my students to communicate with her students on assignments, encouraging peer revision and critique.

Not all students will go to college; therefore, we as educators should understand this choice and allow different routes for a high school education. College-bound students should not have to sit in the same English class as students who plan to go to work right after graduation. There are different expectations for the post high school work force than the post college work force. We should be preparing students for both worlds respectfully.

Teachers should be expected to have a rigorous curriculum that is based on the state and national standards, which should be vertically and horizontally aligned. This does not mean that each teacher should be required to teach the exact same lesson, the exact same way on the exact same day. Having a vertically and horizontally aligned curriculum is different that having a cookie-cutter curriculum with no teacher-input that has been mapped out for the entire district.

Teachers should not feel pressured to change a grade or dumb-down the assignments or give multiple chances for students to turn in assignments and/or pass the assignment, test or grading period. Students should be allowed to fail and be able to use coping mechanisms to deal with that failure. Parents should allow their student to fail early on so the consequences are not a high stakes situation, like a standardized test. Students need to rise to the occasion and put forth the effort to earn the grade they desire instead of expecting the grade they feel they are entitled to be given.

Public schools should not have to create reach-out programs to encourage parents to be involved in their students’ academic career. Many parents are involved in parent-teacher organizations such as PTA and PTO in elementary schools. There are many parents who volunteer at the elementary schools. Where do these parents go when the students enter the 5th and 6th grades? Middle school, junior high and high school students need parent involvement just as much, if not more, than elementary school students. The middle grades are when kids are the most influential and impressionable. Nowadays, the middle grades are when kids are pressured about sex and drugs. These students are dealing with constant bullying at school and through social networking, which means students are constantly in contact with each other, whether it be in a positive or negative way. Parents need to foster independence, responsibility, goal-setting, coping skills, respect, and many other tools students need that should come from home instead of the public schools.

Limited English Proficiency students as well as Special Education students need to be carefully monitored to ensure they are placed in the best classrooms for their disabilities where they can grow and be successful in a safe environment. This programs have become too much of a paper trail and have much more of a business out-look than a student-centered perspective.

Moreover, every administrator (including the ones in the campus building, in the administration building across town, the ones in Austin in the Texas Education Agency building and the politicians, who think they know what is going on in public schools) should be required to teach at least one public school class. It is important for administrators and politicians to stay abreast the challenges both the students and the teachers face in day to day education in the classroom. How else will they really know and understand what is going on daily unless they are in the classroom? Anything less would be based from memory or hear-say.

In response to Chris Janotta, I am not only wearing red on Tuesdays now, I am also going to be speaking out about issues in my blog postings. Although I felt silenced last spring and summer due to some gossip about feelings in response to my perspective on educational issues, I have since tackled my fears of being censored and/or reprimanded for them.

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James Patterson

James Patterson

I want every student I teach to hear these words from James Patterson. He is by far my favorite author. Not only does he write thriller murder mystery best sellers, which is one of my favorite genres, but also he incorporates cliff-hanger chapters that are quick reads. I always recommend a James Patterson book to my students, especially a struggling reader. His books are high-interest and medium-level.

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It’s All about Perspective

My parents taught me at a young age to always have clear expectations of what I wanted out of life. When I was a tween (after the “big talk”), my parents encouraged me to make a list of expectations in a potential husband. I began the list of “musts” and “cannots.” Shortly, my mother (and I know she did this lovingly), redirecting me to one of the “must” items on my list that read “He must be a Christian,” said, “Don’t you mean you want him to be a Baptist?”

“Sure,” I responded crossing out the word Christian, replacing it with the word Baptist, all the while knowing that my husband being a Baptist was not at the top of my “musts” list. Honestly, I didn’t care then, and I do not care now. Furthermore, I became a Catholic, which at first seemed like the initiation of the Spanish Inquisition, but overall, my family handled it with grace.

Whether a Christian is a Baptist, or a Catholic, or a member of any other denomination (or a non-denominational Christian, for that matter), they all believe in God. They all have their codes, standards, practices, and rituals, but ultimately, in my opinion; religion is nothing above a man-made organization in which tries to make logical sense out of something that must be taken on faith alone.

In that moment I realized that I was an individual, separate from my parents. I spent the better part of my teen years trying to convince my parents that I was different than them. My father is a very logical man and would sit down and discuss things with me. My mother and I did not have logical discussions about anything. We mainly argued about everything. Those were some tough years for both of us. Luckily, we are very close now. Somehow along the way, we learned how to just be. I have many characteristics that come from both my parents, but there is enough of me that is different to make my parents ask each other, “Where did that come from?”

Autonomy is a wonderful thing. The allowance of autonomy is even better. I think we as educators try so diligently to teach the way we were taught. I mean, what else are we supposed to do, right? I certainly did not learn everything I needed to know about teaching in college. In fact, if we were to survey teaching styles and learning styles, most teachers teach how they learn. I know I do. I am very visual as a teacher and a learner. I have to see it, draw it, plan it, picture it. I get lost in lecturing. Sure, I like to have class discussions, but a straight lecture? I do not remember the last time I lectured in a classroom. Present and discuss, now that I love. When I think about the word ‘lecture,’ I remember my biology classes from college where the professor lectured in a lecture hall, and we all copied his notes word for word off the chalkboards. It was boring as hell!

If we teach the way we were taught, then we must also manage our classrooms in the way we were managed, or dare I say disciplined? I remember just a handful of teachers I had throughout my entire educational career that treated me and my classmates like we were idiots.

Most of my teachers were kind, loving, caring creatures that I did not realize existed outside of the school walls. I remember being startled by the site of my elementary school principal at the grocery store. There are two teachers, both of which I did not have in school, who became friends with my mother. I still keep in touch with both of them, although I would never consider them colleagues. They are more like mentors to me.

Here is where the controversy will begin . . .

I have taught and currently teach with some adults who treat students so poorly. I am actually appalled by these adults. (In the background of my mind I hear the theme song to this paragraph, Michael Buble’s “Feeling Good” . . . It’s a new dawn . . . It’s a new day . . . It’s a new life . . .”) . . . I know there was a time when a child was taught that he was to be seen and not heard. I know there was a time when a child was taught not to speak until someone has spoken to him. I know there was a time when a child was to show all others his elder respect by saying, “Yes, Ma’am” and “No, Sir.” And, there is nothing wrong with those teachings or the time in which they were taught. However, with that being said, that time is not today. The students who walk through our hallways deserve to be treated with dignity and grace. The students who walk through our hallways deserve to be shown respect. Yes, I said respect!

The days when the old saying that one must show respect to receive respect is leaving this world if it is not already gone. Today a teacher needs to show respect in order to receive respect. I understand how this may sound to some people. On the other hand, I see how teachers disrespect their students, and try to play the “Well, when I was in school, I would have never even thought . . . ” card. Newsflash, honey . . . those might have been the days, but “It’s a new day!” Change has arrived.

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Managing the Fear

Let me just get this out of the way now . . . above the fear that I will not be successful (because I can deal with failure), I fear that I will be successful. For example, I have always been grounded in reading and writing. I knew in first grade with Ms. Wendy Wooley that I would become a teacher. As sure as I am sitting in my home office and typing, I knew that I would be on the other side of that teacher’s desk one day.

There is another side of me though. There is the person who wants to write. It is silly – I, more than anyone else, know that if I want to write, I can write. I do, but I am also scared to write. I realize how this sounds . . . a writing teacher who is scared to write. That’s like a uni bomber who is scared to die, or a Navy Seal that is afraid of water, or a stand-up comedian who is scared of public speaking. Nevertheless, I am afraid to write because I fear I will be successful. What if I am successful? Then what will I do? Will I still teach? How will I balance family, teaching, writing, etc.? And it continues to spin out of control . . .

This makes me think about my students. Are they scared to learn? I know they are scared to write. If I am scared to write, I know they are. They show their fear by asking questions, wanting the teacher to read their papers just to see if what they have written is okay. As a teacher this has often annoyed me in the past, but I do understand where they are coming from. How are students supposed to know what we expect out of them if we are not clear with our expectations? — On a side note, I have a whole other idea about expectations, but I digress.

I need to express my fear to my students. I need to channel this fear into better instruction, communicating with my students that it is okay if the is not perfect; and it is okay if I do not agree with your opinion.

Furthermore, I need to accept this is a fear for myself and tackle it. I’m not going to let a bunch of “What if’s” keep me from being who I have always had a burning desire to be. I’ll cross those bridges of conflicts in my schedule and life choices and changes when I get to them. Besides, if that is the worst thing that happens out of living my dreams, is it really that bad? Ahh, anxiety; she’s a bitch!

I would like to explain what I am not afraid of in this exploration of fear. I am not afraid of disappointing anyone, embarrassing anyone, stirring up anger in anyone, or being wrong. I am not afraid of what my friends, family or peers will think of me. I am not afraid of controversial issues, disagreements or differences in opinions.

I think the underlying factor in my fear is the consequence(s) that will occur once I begin. For example, knowing myself and my integrity, I am not above (or below, for that matter) stating the truth, even when people do not want to hear it, even when it is not politically correct, even if it goes against the grain of what has been my existence up until this point. When it has been written, I cannot take it back. That will inevitably come back to haunt me and the ones I love (which is my biggest concern). I do not want my loved-ones to have to suffer because of my choices.

So, there . . . it is out there. I have said it. It has been written. Now we will see what happens.

These question remain:

  • How will I utilize/teach/explain this fear in the classroom?
  • What are my writing goals?
  • How can I use this fear to connect/empathize with my students?

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